All signs point to nowhere

So I don't know if all of you know this, but I am recently 22.  That means that Im naive and full of life, right?

No...the opposite.  My life is messy, and young lives are messy.  The sad part is I look to people are older and wiser than me and I'm like "Help me how do I deal with this?"  and they're like "LOL IDK KTHANXBAI!"  Like seriously who knows the answers to these questions?  Sometimes I just want to be normal.  CAN SOMEONE TELL ME HOW TO BE NORMAL!?!?!?!

I'm not saying that I'm a total mess.  I got an education and work experience and am actively looking for work and know how to lead my life, but sometimes I don't get the inter-personal relationships thing.  Like I know I don't want to die alone...and unfortunately if I don't do something that might happen.  I feel like too many people these days don't say what they mean or mean what they say.  Like if someone asks you "Hey, what's wrong?" and you say "Nothing...", then NOTHING WAS SOLVED.  As opposed to answering "YEAH SOMETHING IS WRONG.  YOU SLEPT WITH MY GIRLFRIEND, DIDN'T DO THE DISHES, AND ATE THE LAST OREO!!!!" (Last time I'll use caps in this post. Promise.)  See I feel like so many problems in a relationship were solved in one sentence.

Instead we allow these things to fester...and then the weekend happens.  Or basically any other event involving alcohol happens.  And secrets happen.  And then drama ensues.  It's like seriously?  We've seen enough HBO mini-series to know that syuff goes down like this.  Why can't we all be honest with each other?  It would make being friends, brothers, sisters, children, parents etc. so much easier!  It's how I feel, and it's how I approach most situations nowadays.  I mean not gonna lie, I totes talked a lot of gossip in my day.  I was quite the byotch throughout my younger years, but like we need to grow up.

So please people make being 20-something easier by being honest with each other, and like owning your words as opposed to hiding and letting all of your tequila do the talking. 

Inception

So I'm trying out this whole blogging thing again.  I hope it goes well this time around, because I seriously don't feel like taking this much time away from my incessant facebooking to invest in another failed project.  So the title of this post is inception and I think it fits because so many new things are starting in my lift as the year 2012 comes to a close.

My name is Ray, I'm 22 and a resident new yorker...I hope that explains enough about me.

I'm a constantly balancing "being professional and having my shit together" with "being a hot mess on the verge of becoming a spinster" (or whatever the male equivalent is).  I think that sometimes shit just happens and I totally want to tell the world about it.  I think it's like super important and cathartic or whatever.

It's all random.  Kind of like that time I spontaneously bought a tiny xmas tree (it was more like a branch of a real xmas tree FYI) for a good friend after a night out on the town.  That kind of random...the good kind that makes you happy and so grateful that awesome stuff still happens in this world.  That's me.  Those are the moments I crave and these are the stories that I hope to share with you all.  More coming soon!