Who knew that 2014 would bring so much drama with it. This winter has been brutal in NY, the political climate isn't much warmer, and my personal life has gone down the shitter.
Just need a place to vent and recollect my thoughts. I'm hoping this becomes one of those stories where real problems try the human spirit but creativity, freedom and love of life triumph in the end. I think it will. I think when it comes to problems in work, love, or family you have to be creative and love your life to make things work.
Some background information: I was dumped this past week for the first time. It hurts, but I'm reluctant to say that it was brutal. I definitely deserve more than what I was getting with this guy, but that's not to say that I wasn't happy or that I won't miss him. I will miss him. I loved this guy, and he was incredibly special. But it had to end for me to move on. I acknowledge things and move on from them. Sometimes you have to. I called and left the most honest message I ever spoke, and I felt amazing afterwards. I felt like like things aren't so definite for me, and I can move past this.
And professionally, I've been challenged more this year than ever before. It's hard but I feel like I can do this if I focus at the task at hand. The path will lead me where I want to go, and I trust my instincts more than ever now.
The sad part is that I want to keep some the things I've gained this year, but if they must go they must go. It'll all come together. I guess the theme is that this is a real phoenix from the ashes time in my life. It's never been colder in NYC but everything I know is slowly burning to the ground. I think the real challenge will be rising from the pile of ashes and becoming stronger than ever. I like that analogy a lot, "the phoenix from the ashes". I'm slowly falling in love with watching things fall apart because I know that with my talents, experience, and strengths that they will only be built more magnificent than they were before.
Maybe it's time to get back to my art, and really burn bright :)
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